Darling Titus is feeling pretty insecure this evening, a result of a few unsettling events that took place earlier today.
It must have started with his second dose of Hep B jab early in the afternoon. Although the brave boy did not wail at length like all the other babies at the clinic, the jab certainly took him by surprise and he let out a loud, forceful cry that turned his head bright red.
Later, when we got home, I placed him in his cot - he was asleep by then - and went to prep his bath. Little did I know that he woke up soon after, and the sound of running water drowned out his cries for attention. By the time I picked up his cries and got to him, poor Titus was all red and trembling. :(
I held him close to my bosom to calm him, whispering continuously in his ears that I love him and will never abandon him. My poor darling!
When he seemed somewhat settled, I gave him his first bath for the day. Now, if there's anything baby Titus absolutely hates, it is having a bath. He knows it is coming and would cry forcefully once I begin stripping him down. So as I begin unbuttoning his bodysuit, he got all agitated again. Unfortunately for him, a bath must be had.
To make things worse, two minor accidents occurred during bath time today. First, I lost control of my weakened left wrist while turning him from back to front, causing him to slip on the bottom of the tub. It shocked him and made him cry even harder. Then, while rinsing his back on a face-down position, I failed to realise that he was placed too low and his face was submerged in water. When I brought him up, the tortured chap was sputtering.
I COULD HAVE DROWNED HIM!
I AM A HORRIBLE MOTHER!
It took a warm bottle of milk to help him regain his composure, and he fell asleep in my arms soon after.
It was apparent how the string of incidents had affected him; he startled more easily during his nap and I had to keep patting him and telling him I was there with him. Hardly surprising that the nap did
not last long.Unfortunately, when he rose, I was washing his bottles in the kitchen and did not hear him cry. Once again, he was all red and trembling when I got to him.
It took longer to calm him this time, and he would only be quiet when I cradled him tightly.
Now, the sun has set and he is still agitated. Oh man. I think it will be a long night for me.